Right now I am in the phase of writing scripts. The process is slow going, but methodical. I'd prefer to write a story properly the first time, but that's never the case. I'll write an issue or two, develop the character and then return to older scripts to retool the language and make it match the feel of later characterization. It's rather embarrassing to go back and read the old captions. Why, at that moment, did I believe she/he would sound like that? Where was my mind when I choreographed this fight sequence? Why did I leave this in when it's just filler? Etc, etc, etc.
Seeing the process on paper is different. It's hard to describe why the experience is so exhilarating to me. Watching something that weighs nothing and it made of nothing come to live in physical space is incredible. Every line has a personality. Every shadow displaces the page, giving it space and depth. I wonder sometimes how much Batman weighs in real life. Coming up with an answer is as difficult as you'd imagine. Understanding that a fictional character weighs nothing, yet still affects you is harder still. They aren't real. It's the ink that makes us believe otherwise.
So while I was creating the characters I had these expectations of what they would look like. I never thought twice about what Phil interpreted. He seemed to be familiar with these characters already. It's a good thing that we have affinity in our vision. When working with him however, there were moments where I was surprised at the way he developed my descriptions. I wasn't sure about some of his choices at first. It wasn't until after I became acclimated with them that I realized that I was dealing with real (fake) people. These were autonomous creatures that operated outside of my control. I felt rather relieved by my lack of control, actually.
So now it's back to the drawing board. I've had to go and organize my life around a bit. I am writing this on Thursday around 6pm. Actually preparing a post before you schedule it to be published is odd for me. I always wrote them the day of, mostly to challenge myself. Good thing it did! Now I can write with that backbone of experience in advance. One of the bonuses of working the morning shift now.
Life is alright. I can feel it!