I had a conversation with my Best Man this morning that encouraged me a lot. I've arrived at a point of my life where it's not the grand things that get me thinking. Every day, some little, innocuous event transpires and with it I gain clarity.
We primarily talked about God, his role in our lives, and wedding things. He's getting married, my Best Man, to his lovely fiance. Their story is charming in the old world sense. They met each other and were very happy with one another until they broke up unexpectedly a few yeas ago. Everyone was surprised, including myself. It was totally bizarre, had you had known them. It was only after he returned from a year long missionary expedition in Ecuador that he, and her likewise, had a sit down and realized that they really had something. Now, six months later, they are getting married. Go figure.
I lament the short comings that I suffer regularly. Lately things have been hard. My wife and I don't make enough money to afford food on a regular basis, and things are slow as far as my progress. Yet, as I look back on how things have transpired, I see God's hand moving me towards something. I don't know what it is to be honest, but it's something bigger than my own personal expectations. I kind of hope that whatever happens that it lead me towards a better place in writing, or a career in something that I'm good at.
Even if you are not Christian, I don't think that we are above operating sans fate as a species. Things happen and progress as they do in a uniformly for most people, and I believe that even in the presence of great trial and tribulations that hindsight always proves 20/20. That phrase is used pejoratively, as if there is this naivete that blinds us of the hopeless randomness that life is. I think that in the midst of a problem we can only see what's before our eyes, as we react ala "fight or flight." After all is said and done, our eyes look back and go, "Oh, that's where it was all going." It's a shame that we can't, in the midst of struggles, go, "I hope this leads to new opportunities."
And that's kind of the way that I perceive what is happening for me. Things are developing, sometimes slower than usual, but they are. This weekend me, my artist, and my designer are having another Google Hangout to discuss my book. This time we will be taking a look at design sketches. I am holding out for a really positive discussion. As far as building an audience for the thing, I am being transitioned to the morning shift at my work, which will allow me to meet with groups of local writers down here in San Diego. I only found out about this last week so good for me, I guess. I'm trying to look ahead.
I've got some good articles coming up on Sequart pretty soon. Keep your eyes peeled for those!
Have a great weekend.